Being awakened by a bright flash of light in a dark room and the rumble of thunder vibrating my bed, definitely had my mind focussing on Fear rather than Faith. Next, I realised the downpour of rain and a flood of thoughts saturated my mind. I had an early morning commute for Jury duty (that I already was anxious about) and was being filled with anxiety about my drive to come:
Will it be a safe drive?
Where would I park?
What could the case be about? Would it be dangerous?
What if I got lost and was late?
Do I have enough gas in my car?
Where is my umbrella?
What was I going to eat for lunch?
What shoes was I going to wear? (As I regret never investing in rain-boots lol)
How long until my alarm goes off? I notice 20 minutes left and felt exhausted. I wasn't sure if it was lack of sleep, the fears overcoming me, or a combination of both. Thats when my sob of submission surfaced and I reflected on the Lord remembering that He had it all under control and worrying about it was of no use. I surrendered and was comforted because God would be with me through sunshine or storm. His comfort could shine within me as long as I did not allow satan to dim it with doubt and fear.
Within minutes i heard the downpour subside as my focus shifted from fear to faith. I rested a few more minutes and prepared for my morning. As I locked my front door, I turned and saw the beauty of sky blue creeping out with a glare of sunshine from a disappearing cluster of grey clouds.
I felt so foolish. Why did I allow myself to worry in the first place. The morning was totally clearing up with sunshine and none of my fears were near a realty. I was ready to enjoy the day in His SONshine which I had access to the whole time.
How often do our thoughts spiral into fears that never really happen? Place your faith over your fears as you surrender to the Lord and allow Him to make something beautiful! And don't forget to enjoy the SONshine in your life daily-even on a rainy day.
October 13, 2020